Not again

Airway is closing again… can feel it. Bring on the pen.

Coffee and such

So since the last time I updated, I’ve joined a bit of a facebook support group for corn allergy type people. It’s been very great, and they’ve been telling me about products I never thought of.

We now own organic coffee. I’ll have to find if there are any coffee places that pour organic coffee around.. this could be a tough one. The desire to feel good is great though. So I shall be strong.. and maybe only drink coffee from home. I’ll have to check the coffee bar at central market.. note to self.

I also had some organic honey last night. Sweetest thing ever! Didn’t bother me, so if I’m safe… and get safe honey.. that I know what flower was used etc… YUM.

That’s all I got for now.. oh I posted a cool recipe to my wall on the FB.. you should check it out.

Coming soon…

I’m getting a sweet awesome camera for my birthday, so I will begin taking pictures of some wonderful meals made by my wife, that are corn and gluten free. She will also provide recipes so I can post it up for you all.

Expect to see some food roll outs by the end of the month!

I’ve just seen a face

For my wife, some beatles.

I’ve just seen a face,
I can’t forget the time or place
Where we just met, she’s just the girl for me
And I want all the world to see we’ve met
Mmm, mmm, mmm, mmm mmm mmm

Had it been another day
I might have looked the other way
And I’d have never been aware
But as it is I dream of her tonight
La, di, di, da di di

Falling, yes I am falling
And she keeps calling me back again

I have never known
The likes of this, I’ve been alone
And I have missed things and kept out of sight
But other girls were never quite like this
La, di, di, da di di

Falling, yes I am falling
And she keeps calling me back again

Falling, yes I am falling
And she keeps calling me back again

I’ve just seen a face
I can’t forget the time or place
Where we just met, she’s just the girl for me
And I want all the world to see we’ve met
Mmm, mmm, mmm, la di di

Falling, yes I am falling
And she keeps calling me back again

Falling, yes I am falling
And she keeps calling me back again

Falling, yes I am falling
And she keeps calling me back again

Did you read this far down? If you did, I’ll talk food. Last night we made dinner for my grammer (grandmother) and it was delicious. Flank style steaks with a pepper rub, brocolini, bruss-sprowts, and they had potato. (her and mello)

It was a delicious meal, I must say.

Gonna be a busy day at work. I’ve got my beatles in my ear. My ipad has 153 songs of theirs spanning over 11 albums.  which is a bit more than half of the 217 they released, and barely more than half of the 301 they wrote.. (I am a bit of a beatles nerd.)

I am the egg man.

Frustration

When people don’t understand how I live now, and tell me as much.. when they say they understand, and obviously don’t.. and make me feel horrible for being the way I HAVE TO be now.. it makes me very frustrated.

I’m fully aware that I’m no longer “Normal,” and I have to be on a lot of meds, which can cause problems. I’m very aware that it’s not easy to understand what I’m going through, because few people have so much taken away from them, as part of their normal daily life, in an instant.

I get it, I’m different.

 

Sometimes I wonder if I’m really stupid

I really do. Yesterday, after having a ton of pain and trouble waking up.. I rolled into work late, and proceeded to have a horrible day. I couldn’t  get right, my medicine seemed to do nothing.

Then I got stupid. In the afternoon I decided to swing by the vending machine to “See how allergic I REALLY am.”  All of you reading this now are surely wondering what’s wrong with my brain.

My body at that point, decided to show me how allergic I am to eating bad things, by the hell-headache, and the… digestion-al… punishment.

So it does ask, am I really stupid?

After work, I began to recognize I was going to keep being a moron unless I made a change or two to my diet, to allow certain needs to be met. So at the grocery store, I found some rice crackers. No wheat, no corn products, and I’m in love. My need to crunch n munch on a nice snack is satiated! I had some last night with hummus and some with salsa (like a chip) and I was very happy!

Then I realized the plums I purchased weren’t ripe yet.

Seriously, but I play it up on here like it ruined my night.. it did not.  I fell asleep around 10 and slept through the night, and much like if you have a baby do that, it was a great accomplishment.

So yeah, I’m gonna have to be careful to not be a fool.. my foolishness made me put on a few pounds too.. so I have to work on that.

I’ll have to work on that.

I always have a feast nearby

 

I carry (usually) a good clutch of Go Go Squeez Apple sauce with me, in my purse. http://www.gogosqueez.com/

They come highly recommended.. by me.

 

http://www.gogosqueez.com/products/apple-grape/ APPLE GRAPE?!?! NEW FLAVOR!

Their website also have cool ideas for kiddos. http://www.gogosqueez.com/playlist/

Go get some….TODAY!

(and give it to me)

It’s a new day

Well it sure is a new day.

I got put on some more, new, meds. I apparently wasn’t dealing with the drastic life change that is being allergic to everything, and am now diagnosed as “clinically depressed.”

The meds seem to help, I feel like I’m awake in ways I was sleeping before, not dealing with the absence of foods that had memories attached to them. That was unhealthy.. as was my desire to grab 2 bagels and shove them down my throat. (don’t worry.. they came back out.) Very self destructive. This is when we (melissa wonderwife and myself) realized there was a deeper issue at hand here. I can’t speak enough about how wonderful she is to me, and stands by me through thick and thin.

So that desire is gone now, to feel normal, by harming myself with foods etc.

My body is still getting over that stupidity earlier in the week, but the new meds are definitely a plus.